Watching Over Us

Today I feel emotional.

Not in a bad, once-a-month kind of way.

Just so blessed, and so thankful.

My friends are amazing.

Sometimes, okay all the time,

it is tough to reach out and speak the truth about how 

we are really doing.

But lately, I have been doing that a little more.

If someone asks,

"How are you doing?"

And the word "fine" or "good"

actually doesn't accurately portray how I am

really doing,

I will try to tell the truth.

Today I wrote this kind of candid reply

to a few friends in a Facebook message.

It was tough, but I put myself out there

and told the truth.

In response I received an outpouring of encouraging

words and promises of prayers that left me in tears.

Not long after

(and I do believe this was the Lord's timing, not coincidence)

a dear friend and I were texting and

she asked me about this very specific instance.

Not only had she remembered what I shared with her,

but she was checking in with me.

She is a prayer warrior,

and a woman of God who often provides 

me with nuggets of wisdom and reminders of 

how BIG our God is.

I am so thankful for

these women in my life 

who are there for me.

Even when its scary to tell the truth.

Ask for prayer.

Be vulnerable and transparent.

Being filled with the knowledge that

God is in charge of our lives,

not to worry about tomorrow,

knowing He has a plan for us,

doesn't always give me the peace that it should.

I know these things,

but sometimes I don't feel them.

That is my fault.

All I need to do is look

around and see so many instances

where this is true. 

Today I am filled with that peace,

and the understanding.

He is Lord over my life,

and yours,

whether or not you believe it.